I don’t want to tell you this because I don’t want it to be true, but we said goodbye to my beloved Cookie last week. Her smile and spunk lit up my days for over thirteen years and I miss her terribly. Thirteen years! I am the luckiest, and what I would give for more.
Cookie was my sidekick, my frontman, my best friend, my real-life teddy bear, my soul pup. As long as Cookie was there, I was never alone. I can almost feel her snuggled up by my side now. Cookie got me through the darkest of days and brightened the best. She kept me company through countless long days and long nights as we built this website from scratch. She taste tested nearly every recipe, too, whether I wanted her to or not.
In her earlier years, Cookie had a terrifying tendency to shoot out the front door like a rocket, which inspired immense gratitude for every day that we got together. Then she received a terminal cancer diagnosis, lymphoma, and defied the odds by living another two-and-a-half years. I always dreamed of taking care of her in her old age, and that’s what I got to do. Over the past year, she lost her hearing and her health declined, which felt more difficult and complicated than I ever anticipated. She died of old age, and while I’ll always wonder if I made the right decisions every step of the way, I am finding some peace and comfort in knowing that we spent all of her best days together. A dog could not have been more loved.
Cookie came into my life at the perfect moment, when I was fresh out of college and learning to live on my own. She walked with me all the way to marriage and motherhood. She left me exactly where I want to be in my upper thirties, with my loving husband and our baby girl. My heart is so full and so broken at the same time.
Cookie was extraordinary and so was our bond. I spent much of our time together wishing for what I have now, yet I’m feeling so sentimental about our special time together as Cookie and Kate. May this be your gentle reminder to appreciate what you have when you have it.
Thank you for cooking along with us and for finding joy in her antics. I’ll be back soon to share more photos and some of my favorite Cookie memories with you. She was truly the greatest.
Leslie
I can’t believe your precious cookie is gone. I’m so sorry but so happy you had this important relationship in your life. I will cherish the photos of her in your cookbook even more now!
KAROL PATRICIA HEATH
Hi Kate, I am crying, what a beautiful tribute to Cookie. I am so very sorry for your loss.
Kate
Thank you, Karol.
Carol Sachs
I am terribly sad about your Cookie. I know what it is to lose your beloved animal companion. We brought home our first Siberian Husky in 1965 and have had that breed to this day. Lots of losses, lots of tears and a hole in our hearts for each one. We started to have two at a time when we had our third Siberian and that continued until we aged then felt we had to go back to one at a time. We had all females and 2 human girls. People don’t understand what profound sorrow we feel unless they have been there. My tears come now and then for all of them. Deepest sympathies to you and yours. Cookie will always be in your heart.
Kate
Thank you for your kind words, Carol.
Joani Shaw
I am sorry for your loss of such a great dog, Cookie.
Thank you for letting us know. And the advice of appreciating what we have now.
Love and good memories prevail,
Sincerely, Joani Shaw
Val
When I read this last month I began to cry. I had always worried for you about this as I had lost my cardigan blue merle corgi of 15 years that Cookie always reminded me of. I was happy to have such lovely pictures of her when I bought your Love real Food. It was always so evident what a wonderful bond you shared. Thank you for all you share with everyone, including this most personal of your loss.
RIP Cookie you will be missed.
Kate
Thank you for your kind words, Val!
Victoria
Oh my I am so full writing this. My heart breaks as Cookie was a delight and seeing you two together is what first made me sign up for your blog. You were delightful together, two peas in a pod. I’m so very sorry and at the same time so thankful you had the experience of having her walk you through some of life’s greatest adventures. She will always be in your heart. Like you I had a similar experience with a dog that walked me through similar milestones. He left us 32 years ago and we have had other pets who have left their own special place, but his space is special. Even my children who don’t remember him revere the special place he held and still holds- and they are now adults! Be gentle with yourself.
Kate
Thank you for your kind words, Victoria.
Patricia Gomezbarrera
I am subscribed to your site. Please don’t doubt your decision, which was the best. Cookie had the best mother in the world and you gave her all of your love and made her happy and secure. Dogs are our teachers, our companions and if we learned more about their feelings and loyalty, we would undoubtedly be better human beings. I am very sorry for your loss.
Patricia
Cheryl North
So very sorry to hear that Cookie has died. She will always live on in our hearts and minds. It is a magic power that many dogs have and I have experienced it myself. God Bless all our dogs!
Alimama
So very sorry to hear about your beloved Cookie. It brought such joy to know she was always by your side. Our Roxie passed several years ago and thinking about time spent with her still warms my heart. And now we have Brodie to warm our feet and our bed. RIP Cookie. Good Dog.
Kate
Thank you for your kind words, Alimama.
Lisa Ann
Kate,
I am so sorry about Cookie’s passing. I shared a similar 15 year journey with my beloved dalmatian mix, Lucky, who I lost a few years ago. You were blessed to have such an amazing pup and she was blessed to have such a loving mom. I look forward to you sharing some favorite Cookie memories ❤️
Korey
I’m so, so very sorry for your loss.
Jeanette
We will all miss Cookie and grieve with you on losing her; but you two were loving sidekicks. A life well loved is a life well lived. I am glad you had each other.
Kate
Thank you for your kind words, Jeanette.
Susan Palermo
Tears. You were a wonderful pet parent and your gentle caring for her was evident in all of your photos and posts. I’ve been through this many times and as each pet is unique, so is each deep love and loss. I feel gratitude for each of them. And for the humans it has been my privilege to love and let go.
Kate
I appreciate your kind words, Susan.
Christina Abney
A wonderful tribute to Cookie. I am glad you both knew you had it so so good with each other. I am so sorry she is gone. But she will truly be with you forever.
Patricia
Have just found your site, my heart goes out to you on the loss of your dog. I was in the exact same situation and have also lost my ‘soul pup’. Don’t second guess your decisions. The post speaks volumes on how much immense love you had for her. You gave her a great life and while I don’t know if you will or do currently have another dog, be comforted by the fact that you’ve cherished the times you had together and she was with you until the end. She’ll be with you always.
Kate
Thank you for your kind words, Patricia. We appreciate it!
Lisa
Oh Kate! Sincere condolences to you on your loss of Cookie. Sending so much love to you in such a hard time. From Lisa in Australia.
Ross
My heart goes out to you.
It seems that Cookie lived for you and you for Cookie.
It’s tough losing your friend.
Christine Takacs
When I first started following you, I wasn’t sure who was Cookie and who was Kate. Of course, as I got to “know you” I figured it out :) I was instantly your secret admirer bc I could easily write adventures of me and my Cooper. What a road you and Cookie traveled together!! A true Cinderella story. How magical it was for you to be in her life and her in yours. Smile and remember this. Cookie wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. God bless you and thank you for sharing her with me and all of the other followers. xxoo
Kate
Thank you for your kind words and support, Christine! I appreciate it.
Martha McCoy
Oh Kate, I have been following you for years, cooking and taste testing along with you and Cookie! I’m so sad to hear about Cookie’s passing, but so glad you got to be with her and take good care of her to the very end. What a beautiful tribute for your soul pup and beloved member of the community of healthy eating you and Cookie created together. Sending caring thoughts your way during this time of grieving and gratitude. Take good care,
Martha
Sherry Soule
I just discovered your blog a week after our Corgi Edgar was diagnosed with Sarcoma. We had to say goodbye and your Cookie makes me smile while looking at your cookbook.
I had no idea he had passed and I share your loss. We lost the heart of our family.
Kate
I’m so sorry to hear that. I appreciate your kind words and hope your pup is doing better.
Barbara
I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved dog, Cookie. It is devastating when we must let our pets go. You are not alone in your sorrow.
We will all remember Cookie. Hang in there <3
Kate
Thank you, Barbara.
Susan
What a touching story of the bond between you and Cookie. I believe a bond like that can never be broken. My heart goes out to you…
Kim Curl
Kate, so sorry for your loss. I haven’t looked at your site for sometime.. just been cooking the same go-tos, so I am just seeing this. Cookie was blessed to have such a wonderful family!
Kate
Thank you, Kim. I appreciate your kind words.